Journal (9/18/25)

"whiskey river take my mind, don't let her memory torture me."

I feel like vomiting cause of the taste of blood in my mouth.

I got my friends number today, im actually really happy about that. :-) today was good, im gonna go home and do a lot of work though. sucks. i want to spend time with my grandma cause shes leaving tomorrow. well honestly, i can do it all later, i wanna spend time with her mostly. sometimes i get scared and sad cause she always tells me about her tumors that they cant remove since her lungs are so fragile. I dont want her to go so soon, I just want to hold on a little longer. I love her so much and i have no idea what tomorrow brings.